May 2016 1st Cycle

Today I have a severe pain despite having my stomach wrapping with tourmaline wrap and laying down on the tourmaline bed. I am puzzled why the pain is so uncontrollable that I cannot perform my usual activities. Till I recall something. I ate crabs yesterday. I forbade myself from having cooling food and beverage like tea, oranges or anything that is cold. I forgot about seafood is considered cooling and enjoyed this delicacy so much. I earned myself this miserable moment.

So my advice is not to take cooling stuff before or during your menses, it will be "chaos'. Especially the yummy crabs.

I have menses pain, meaning my baby planning failed again. I gonna jiayou and be motivated.

April 2016 9th Cycle

Time flies, its time to check ovulation tomorrow. It is like a routine task to do every month. I shall not try to think of hope so I would not have disappointment. Just like nature takes its course. Pointless to exert stress to myself as this is not something that you can achieve by wisdom or hardworking. The only happy moments daily is to love my hubby and be loved by him. See whether I can strike "lottery" this month : ). Jiayou!

April 2016 2nd Cycle

My menses came yesterday, three days in advance. I was shocked coz normally it came pretty punctually around 27th of my cycle. I wondered was that due to the tourmaline wrap and the mineon mattress I am currently using now. These products were said to improve blood and qi circulation. I supposed to have numbness in my left leg before the day of my first menses so I would be pretty assured that my menses would come the next day. But I did not have the symptom so I was shocked that it came yesterday evening without warning, luckily I always use pad to play safe. This month I did not strike the "lottery". So I will have my red bean recipe later. Those who are still TTC like me, keep trying. Jiayou and be motivated, believing the little angel will come to us one day.

April 2016 23th cycle

My nausea had totally gone but the cramps are still haunting me. Though I have mild pain, thanks to tourmaline. But its existence really irritates me. My hubby recently bought a mattress imported from Japan said to improve Qi circulation called Mineon Jewell. Its a mattress, I have totally no idea why it is called jewell. Perhaps it is a gem. I have mild pain but after I lay on bed, the pain is gone. Amazing! But once I get out of bed, the pain comes back again. The mattress is an amazing product which cost over $3k. It said that it is made of the hot spring ores from the radium hot spring in Japan which was believed to have negative ions that promotes health benefits. My hubby could feel the tingling feeling when he placed his palms on the mattress, I couldnt. Perhaps the skin of my palms is more thicker than his. Other than that the mattress is said to consist more tourmaline to generate negative ions and infrared radiation as well as Biochotan Charcoal that can absorb body odor. We shall see whether it can also bring us some good news. There are three to four more days to go to "welcome" my monthly visitor who comes without fail. Good luck to me and you. Jiayou and be motivated.

April 2016 18th cycle

My abdominal cramps started. Luckily with tourmaline wrap, the pain was bearable. I felt nausea these two days. With these cramps, i doubt its good news. Furthermore i would prefer surprise than assumption. Assumption would disappoint me always. So i rather refer concrete proof. After numerous devastrating experience of disappointment again and again, i should play safe and just let nature takes its course. Dun test until u notice she is late which all of us always hope. Those who are in the same route as me, lets jiayou coz u are not alone. We sure make it one day.

April 2016 14th day cycle

Last Friday, I went to my cousin's daughter first year birthday. There were so many kids and babies around. When I saw so many couples with baby, I got so envy. There was one cutie boy crawling towards my direction. I was so fascinated and carried him. My hubby was also excited during that moment. I did not bear to return him to his parents but I knew I had to. Do you know what the little cutie did when I handled him back to his mom. He grabbed my shirt and did not want to release it. I felt a loss that moment. My cousin complained that he was exhausted. It was a route to being through if you are parents, unless you have helpers to take care of the baby. Otherwise you will not be able to rest sufficiently. I asked my hubby whether he is prepared to take up the challenge, he nodded his head and said just to wait for chance. A chance to become parents.'] I will still carry my life and of course get ample rest before the cutie comes. I will jiayou and hope you are. Be motivated.

Menses ended - today is the fifth day of my cycle

The disappointment of not conceiving subsided. I regained to my cheerful self. Having my speciality red beans soup almost every day, thus wrapping my tourmaline waist wrap everyday, motivate me to have a fresh start on trying for baby. Can't wait on the tenth day to test ovulation, its like gamble. Gamble 50-50 percent to see whether we strike lottery, only that we have to rely on ovulation kit to determine when is the right time to bet. My hubby has gambled his millions of sperms every month and we await to hit the "jackpot" ie to meet the egg. As i mentioned in my previous blog, im going to try self IUI home.

We mustn't lose hope in winning if we keep "betting" every month on the right time.

Those who are trying, dun give up. You are not alone. Jiayou be motivated.